I haven't updated much about therapy lately. I still struggle with it. In many ways, I still feel like I hold back and censor myself, which then, of course leads me to believe that it isn't working and it just becomes a vicious cycle.
However, last week in therapy, I talked about how I've been feeling so stagnant lately. I've just felt nothing - good or bad. I also mentioned that I don't think I dream - or at least don't remember the dreams.
This leads me to, a long time ago, I read a blog by someone that was in therapy. She was talking about the homework her therapist gave her. It sounded interesting. Ok, I can be the true dork I am here. It sounded cool. When I read about it, I kind of wished my therapist gave me homework.
She never has, not even mentioned it. But the inner dork in me would actually like it.
Back to my story - that night, after therapy last week, I had a dream, that I remembered in the morning (!) that my therapist gave me homework and I was doing it. One assignment had to do with drawing with my eyes closed. I was brilliantly talented in artwork with my eyes closed.
I woke up rather happy. From the homework and from the art. It was cool and quite a feeling.
Anyway, I mentioned it today, although I didn't quite explain how great it made me feel. I don't want to be the dork that points out how much I'd enjoy homework. But, I would. So, I found some myself. Some are even too dorky for me (the one that tells you to print positive messages out and hang them on your mirror to read daily) but others I found, I think will be kind of helpful.
Perhaps, I'll even mention to her that I found them.