"I just try to remember GOD picked us strong people because an ordinary person couldn't manage and deal with this disease!!"
Someone posted this on a MS message board. It was in a category labeled "guilt" and is totally meant to be inspirational and uplifting.
That's not how I take it, at least today. I'm mad that I have MS and constantly asking, "why me?" Which, I know is a useless question.
I feel so hopeless about the future. I talked to Kay, the MS nurse today. She is so freaken positive, it's unbelievable. I just want 1/10th of what she has. She has this incredible spirit and attitude and is just wonderful. She says to give it a year. Give it a year to settle and then things will get better.
I wonder if she's right. I can't see how it can get better. I feel like I'm a miserable failure at everything I try. The thing is, I can tell myself to wait a full year. Evaluate and see how I feel. But then what? What do I do after a year if things still arn't better? I only see impossibilities getting through the next 5 weeks. How I am going to last 4 months? And then beyond that...