I think I spend 1/3 of my time living in the past, 1/3 living in the present and 1/3 in the future. One would think that's well rounded, but its probably actually very unhealthy.
I live in the past when I think of all things I used to be able to do and can't do anymore. I wish I could and sometimes imagine and try, but fail miserably.
I live in the present, but not thinking about the future. I can't imagine or see a future. That's also not good.
I live in the future when I think about all the things that can wrong with my life. It's not a hopeful future, its a scary future and one I dread.
So, none of those times are particularly effective. I need to find an effective spin to put on it.
I want to remember the good times of the past, but not be sad they are not here now. I need to remember my past made me who I am today. I need to focus on the current moment. I need to accept what I can and cannot do, and be comfortable with it. I need to see a positive future. Lots of great things can happen. Heck, they could find a cure for MS. That would be the most amazing future, but even without, I can do great things. I can live a happy life.
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I was DX at 33, now I am 55, ups/downs, life marches on. I embraced my MS early--it is a part of ME! Self love is lovable and we all want to be lovable people. 33yr relationship, friEnds, comfortable home, LIFE IS GOOD! Sooo much more than one thing to think about. I can only use one finger to type now, but I am writing a book! So many fun things to do with LIFE! I try something new, no matter how small it is, every day. I never want to feel that I wasted this gift called LIFE!
Thats such a great sentiment. I hope I have feel that way when I'm 55.
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