I wimped out. I didn't talk to my doctor about ANY of the things on my awkward agenda to talk to her about. I planned to, I really did. But she started talking about my neck pain and she's pretty convinced it's not neuro. Which, in my mind, then means it's not a big deal. She thinks worst case scenero though and she wants me to have a CT Scan.
The problem, my job is CRAZY now. I don't have time to have this stuff done. I'm a summer camp director, and this is my busy season. It's like February through Apri for a tax agent. It's like an out of control fire for a firefighter. It's just my life. I really can't deal with anything personal during this season.
She said, "your health comes first," which is true, it does, but I also want to have a LIFE. A life means doing the things I love, which is this. I can't imagine how bad it will be when I can no longer do it. Another strong point, that I didn't make to her - but is strong nonetheless. Without this job, I won't have health insurance, and without health insurance, she won't be in my life anymore.