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Friday, December 30, 2011

near tragedy

So, I canceled my neurologist's appointment last month, becuase my new insurance company said I needed a referral from my PCP. My new PCP would not see me until she got my records from my old PCP, so I canceled that neuro appointment and scheduled a new one for this month.

They called yesterday to remind me that I had the appointment. I called the PCP again, who still hasn't gotten the records. I was hopeful and called the insurance company to see if they could waive the need for that referral.

Happily, I found out that if she was in-network, I didn't need one anymore. Great news! But, the story doesn't end there. They looked her up and said she was not in network. GASP!

I asked before I took this job, as her being covered by my new insurance was part of my decision in taking the job. When I called her office, they said she was covered by this insurance.

I call back the insurance company. She looks again and says, nope, not one of our doctors. However, Dr. Bell, who is in the same office as her is one of them. That makes NO SENSE to me. I'm babbling about how illogical I think that is while she looks up Dr. Dayaw by address and finds her.

She says, "Oh, I've got her, she's covered, but her name is not Dr. Dayaw." Now, I realize, this woman has many names, but I am 100% confident that Dr. Dayaw is the name she should be known by with insurance companies.

Her full name is Dr. Maria Pilar Elisa Tejada Dayaw. Her business cards have random initials in there instead of the actual names, and the people who know her well from the MS support group call her Lisa, but basically, her name to me is Dr. Dayaw.

The insurance company says her name is Dr. Pilar. Dr. Maria Pilar. That's wrong, and I know that. They read her whole name though, and its definitly her. That, and there is no Dr. Pilar in her office.

Thankfully, all is set and I can see her next week. Phew.

Thursday, December 29, 2011


Something came up tonight that has come up recently as well. My cousin said to me, "you are always in conrol, your emotions are always stable."

This past summer, I was critized for the same thing. When I was mad or aggitated, no one knew it. I was always in control of it and just dealt with the situation.

But, that was work. I am meant to be like that at work. I'm the boss. The boss should not be hot headed. At least, I don't think she should.

When my cousin said it though, I really thought about it. My own family thinks that about me. The problem is, I don't think that about me.

I feel like I'm a mess inside. Everything in my head is so jumbled, and I feel like, metaphorically, I don't know which way is up. I'm just trying to get through each day, and yet, to others I come off as stable. Interesting.


She's the greatest.

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

I'm a doggy mommy....temporarily

My friend is in Australia. I get her black lab, Morgan. Morgan is wonderful. I adore her. When I was first diagnosed and discharged from the hospital my friend gave me Morgan for a couple weeks. She felt (rightfully) that I needed her to keep me motivated to go on living.

I'm grateful she did. And now she's in Australia for a few weeks and I get Morgan the whole time :)

Monday, December 26, 2011

Christmas has come and gone

The holidays were good. Very weird without my mother, but otherwise good.

The first week of January, I have an appointment with my doctor. The new insurances requires me to get referrals, but the new PCP won't see me without medical records from the previous...and she hasn't gotten them yet. It's never ending, and I have to make a bunch of phone calls this week.

Its vacation week for the school kids. That means my week is going to be crazy, but a good kind of crazy. I'll be busy. Tomorrow is ice skating. I haven't been to this place yet, so I'm excited to see what it's like.

As I'm writing, I am realizing I have nothing important to say.

Monday, December 19, 2011

the holidays

I tend to write more when things aren't going so well. I think I've always been like a teeny bopper with diaries. If I go back and look at them now, my life looks horrible. But combine all the drama of teen angst, along with only writing once every four months, that's what you get.

So, this is a happy post. Nothing is wrong post. I've been feeling pretty good. I got my tooth pulled last week. That kinda sucked, but it hurt so much. I reckon that was the reason for all the other illness going on. As soon as the tooth came out, everything was better.

I wasn't coughing anymore, nothing hurt, it was brillant.

So now, we are onto the holidays. I've got a friend's I am going to go to. Life will be pretty good :)

Saturday, December 10, 2011

another fever

I'm not going to freak out if anything happens but its really getting annoying. Whatever is going on needs to get better, like now.

Tuesday, December 6, 2011


So, we all know heat makes MS worse. Last night I learned that also applied to having a fever.

That's logical, although I didn't think of it when I went to the ER. I had a low grade fever. I went to sleep. I woke up and couldn't see. Everything was blurry. I was ridiculously scared.

Turns out I didn't need to be. It was just the heat from the fever.

I feel very stupid really. I know I am meant to wait 24 hours of symptoms. I know much better..I shouldn't have gotten so scared.

On another note, the ER doc had an eye chart app for his phone. It made me think doctors must have the coolest apps.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

First try at speech to text blogging

Well, I finally found an app that lets me speak and not type. It's a lovely.

And from this post, I figured out how to add punctuation.

So all in all it's been a little crazy lately. I just haven't been feeling well. Am but hopefully it's going to get better.

So the text to speech thing is not working as nicely as I've hoped but it's better than trying to type this whole thing.

Anyway I been sick lately. Like regular sick not MS sick. But I'm just so scared that something is coming my way.

Here's hoping I can just get through the holidays with nothing bad happening.