summer is ending

My camp is over.  We ran for three weeks, had about 22 campers a week, and it was the most amazing experience ever.  After the first week, I felt very good.  I felt like I could do anything and life was amazing.  MS didn't matter, because I was doing what I love and loving what I do.

Now that three weeks are over, I'm exhausted.  I feel like MS is ruling my life and I can't do anything I want to do.  I'm exhausted, overwhelmed, and generally annoyed with everything.  I need to get a new and better mindset, cause this is very unproductive.

Sunny Days at the YMCA

Today was Thursday.  It was the second day of vacation camp and hot as hell.  Basically Satan called, and he’d like his weather back.  I am sweaty, sunburned, filthy, exhausted and happier than I have been in a long time! 

I just feel so productive.  This is my element.  I’m at a camp, running great program for kids.  I’m keeping them safe in the 95 degree weather.  One girl told her mom I was the “sunscreen natzi” and just kept making her put on the sunscreen.  I must have uttered the phrases, “put on more sunscreen before you go outside,” and “drink some more water,” at least a million times today.

Now, the MS and heat thing is a bit of a problem, but I was more proactive about it today than I have been before.  I had my cooling wrap since the wee hours of the day.  I put my vest on by 9am.  We went swimming from 2-4pm, and I jumped in and out 5 times during that time frame. 

I’m happy.  I feel good.  I feel productive.  MS is not going to win…today anyway.

long, hot day

"MS may be part of me, but it is NOT the whole of me!"

I feel like it is.